JadeGreenImmortality

So, coming back was a self-experiment, and the result was: I love writing fanfiction, I love to create art, but I am slow by nature when it comes to my work, and no good in trying to give regular content if I don't want to push my limits to a point where I feel very uneasy ^^°.
Now, I know I don't have many followers, but I still appreciate the ones I have, even though I'm not sure why you're around or if you are still aware you're following me XD. If there are some who are actively interested in what I do: I really encourage you to answer to my last journal, so I know why you're around! I think it would help my a lot to gain momentum. Like every artist, I appreciate feedback to get me going!
Either way - I'll keep the account for the sake of the verry irregular work I like to do and for the sake of my friends I have here. I may only come online every now and again (which can mean two times a month or three times a week...), but I'll stay <3.

By the way, I am DROWNING in the Boku no Hero Academia fandom right now! Started watching it two weeks ago. I am almost through with the anime and gooood I love it so much. 
So who knows, maybe you'll get to see something from that corner XD.

I wish everything great to all of you <3,

Jade

Sooo I've been going through EVERYTHING today (everything I've upload, everything I worked on on my hiatus and such) and feel awfully inspired now.

So I wanted to know what you follow me for, just out of curiousness!

Is it:

a) One Piece

b) the Bucky FanFiction

c) my artworks

d) anything about my OCs (I don't reall expect that to be named, but who knows)
 ?

And, about the fanfictions...since I do creative work totally randomly - like, I can be working like crazy for a day and then nothing for a month, or do every day steadily something - I cannot garantee I'll follow this, but I'd really like to know what you are most interested in.

I have following unfinished works:

a) Zoro Soulmate AU fanfiction with chapters (this will be a hard deal for me bc I find Zoro difficult to write, but I WANNA TRY)

b) a fluffy Sanji One-Shot

c) something with Robin and a female reader


Aaaaalso I have a finished Haikyu (Kouhsi Sugawara) FanFic coming soon, just need so ask somebody to beta-read it!

Thank you for your attention y'all

Hiii....

I know it has been a lot longer than I calculated in my last journal, but hey, here I am!
I just couldn't do it sooner, for personal reasons, as well as those fears mentioned in the explanation journal. Also, like already mentioned, I'll definitely be here not as often and active as before, so I don't start overloading myself again. But I decided to come back with a positive outlook!

Happy to be back! Thank you to all my followers for staying, I am sincerely awed .

I only draw and write irregularly, so I can't promise regular content whatsoever...but when I get to something, it'll surely be around here .

Also I'm on vacation, so the timezone may be confusing my german friends/followers.

Greetings!

Jade   

..wow, it feels so strange to come back around, amazing, astonishing and terrifying all at the same time...
G'day everyone, how's everything going~
So...of course, I can't stumble back in here without a good explanation and everything...here it is. I owe you this one, I really do.

So the last year and the one before I was in a deep personal and kind existential crisis. 
Since I got my first own computer I always admired DeviantArt and all its artists and wanted to be part of it, but I didn't gather the courage to sign up. But in that hard time, I decided to try and fulfill me said dream: be a part of DeviantArt's exuberant community. It was a self-experiment as, what I lately enough came to realize, the  spark of hope in a lifetime that was insecure and dark. DeviantArt, my followers and all the friends I made here were my safe haven.
I came to deeply appreciate and love everyone around here. I made freinds which meant and still mean much to me. All of them were a big help, and to be quite sincere now: I love you. Here, I am talking especially to: Aranren , AyoraPics , JustABrokenSpirit , SketchyTheSkeptical , UkaniDraws and Lehvira ( just changed your name darling! Didn't see it at first XD ).
Still...as you noticed, my abscence time here became longer and longer, until I disappeared for more than half a year.

There are multiple reasons for it:
 I am almost out of the crisis and to not need this place as a safe haven anymore, but since I do care for you nevertheless I won't leave this forever, how could I.
Also, I am finishing school this year and everyone who already went through it knows...it's more than exhausing. My finals are in 6 weeks and I'm completely nuts with studying. Sadly, I am that type of artist who loses motivation and inspiration when stressed...
Also I have to f*cking decide what to do after school and working on that the last freetime is gone.

So, the point is...I really missed you, but I was also damn afraid to come online and tell everyone what is up because I was away for so long....and the more time passe,d the more afraid I became.
When I went online to try and explain I was totally overwhelmed by the amount of messages. I do have problem, which is that I am extremely responsible and perfectionistic, to the point that I put other wellbeing over mine...so I always tried to be kind to everyone, write the kind of comment I would want to get and answer everything. It was so much fun, but also stressy and at some point I couldn't face it anymore. I do not blame you! But I know I raise certain expectations with said behavior and I just can't keep it up anymore, especially now.

So, I wanna say once and for all: I am sorry.

Damn I'm afraid to have lost your trust and caring, but if I did, I would understand and won't blame you for it.
I know I already said it in some other journal, but know I'm going to be sincere: I won't be online until the end of school and then I'll need time to come back. I am surely won't be online as often as I was before, but that doesn't mean that I don't like you or want to avoid you.
I feel especially guilty towards lovely and caring friends who drew and wrote me gifts which I do still appreciate so much and couldn't ever give back the favour.My special thought go to: and who gifted me many things <3 .

So, what will happen right now: Nothing. I'll be gone again for some 4-5 months more after uoloading this because I can't bear any discussions right now. After that I'll come back to talk everything out.

So...that's it. Now, those who wanna know what I am up to lately can go on reading, to everyone else: Thank you for taking your time to read this .

About me:

-My finals in math, German, English and biology are in 7/8 weeks and I'm dying inside.
-I kinda know what I'll do after school (a natural voluntary year) but it's still all very unplanned XD.
-My German Grandma is very ill and I'm worried (but she's still a lovely snarky b*tch <3 so I think she won't die soon ).
-I've got my first boyfriend! It's been 4 months know and he is even more crazy than I am.
-I am more than obsessed with the Witcher ~ (as well as Riverdale ).
-I think I've got a thing for men, like...men because Geralt de Rivia and FP Jones are makine me go nuts.

...yeah that's it.

Love you all!
I would love to hear from you what I missed, but since I do not think I'll be online again till July let's just talk then...